dreams of chaos

I fell asleep within the warmth of your breast
heart beats locked in time
with mine
while behind my eyes
a dream abounds
with chaos;

one voice
above all others
speaks to me
mistake,
wrong,
fuzzy feelings overtake the warnings
a warm touch
kind words
lost
within a maze of deceit
locked far away beneath the waves
to resurface?
I don't know
last thoughts of him
to build a self esteem
and light a spiritual path
but it is ignored once again
for poetry in rhyme
a gentle voice
awaken feelings of love;
which replaced
shadows of a former self
and twisted disillusions
the voice can only
watch it all crumble
helpless to stop, helpless to change.