new torment

I’m not so used to this
It was quite unexpected
I don’t know what to do with them
Feelings,
Without warning they have taken over my body and
linger within my mind,
every waking moment


I so want to call you
Just to hear your voice
But I won’t;

I so want to see you
Just to watch you smile
But I won’t;

I so want to write you a letter
Just to read your name
But I won’t;

How do I cope? this torment?
not of hurt and pain,
but of hope and joy.